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Haven't posted in a long time, just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still not smoking and to share a page I did today:

Had an early St. Patrick's Day celebration at my house today. It was great. everyone came, Jami, Jason, James Edward, Robyn, Casey, John, Cida, Wayne, Renae, Jesica (late), Garrett (late) and Brian (real late). We played some word games and had a 3 legged race. I have a really big bruise on my knee. I cooked corn beef and cabbage, Robyn cooked irish pototoes and Jami, Jason, and James Edward made cupcakes..It was also Wayne's Birthday so we celebrated that too. Renae and Robyn both cried, about different people that's not with us anymore. I'm sad for them and others to include myself, but know I can't think to much about it or will get into a slump again. I'm going to be happy for today. It was a good day in all. I think it helps the young people in our family to have little get togethers.  And of course I'm going to make some pages out of the event. There was no drinking because Robyn don't drink and both my daughters have stopped drinking for 90 days...I'm hoping that leads to an eye opening experience, actually praying for an eye opening experience..I think good things will happen because of it.

Computer has been messed up but my daughter Jesica wiped my hard drive clean so maybe it will stay working:)

My granddaughter, Robyn, quit drinking and has been attending meetings...I take her on Wednesday night and have really been enjoying it...I think everyone should go, even people who don't have a drinking problem..I have learned important things in just the few meeting I have attended. They teach people how to live without drinking, but in fact their principles apply to everyone. They talk about being honest and unselfish, about praying to your higher power but still getting out there and helping yourself..meaning you can't just sit their and wait for the problem to be fixed.. not to worry about things, to act instead of re-act. These are principles we all should live by. As a matter of fact, I think people should have to attend these meetings before they can have children. lol I am very proud of Robyn, but I have always been very proud of her...and of course I'm scrapping the event...

Now on a lighter note: I have been scrapbooking...made a really nice Christmas "grandchildren" page...but they changed the update journal thing sooo will have to experiment to try and download it...also 2 people at work wants me to make a scrapbook for them..I told them if they bought the book I would do it for $3.00 a page?? I have so many machines now I think I can do most of their pages with using just paper...I figure I'll do one and make sure I don't go in the hole..

I'm living with an evildoer....or maybe he's just down right crazy, either way I'm just about tried of it.....
We was watching prison-break, which by the way is great, when my sister from lakeland called. Well I was on the phone for a long time but don't talk to her very often and her daughter is having a lot of problems right now..anyways Jimmy, my crazy husband, goes to cursing me about  me being on the phone and the movie being on pause, which I offered to turn it back on, so I cursed him back. It was a screaming match.....He called me a bitch, which in 30 years of marriage we have never cursed each other......Here lately we have not gotten along.. He is so hateful..He's mad at the world, but I get all the anger..I understand why he's mad at the world..He's had 3 daughters and a grandson that died before him, but it's not my fault.. I'm sad too..I don't take it out on others.  Probably shouldn't post when in this kind of mood, nobody wants to read depressing shit...sorry.

I'm disappointed because I left my camera in Tenn. when I was on vacation. Amber said she would mail it to me, but haven't received it yet. Can't take any pictures of James' room,  Which I finally finished. Painted the chalk broad on wall yesterday..It looks pretty good. Can't post any pages..Haven't really finished any..not been in the mood..

Still haven't finished "wicked" can't keep my mind on it long enough....

planning a trip to New York in april 2007..friends at work wants to go also..it will take me that long to save my part of the money...

If you read this call your mom.....

Life is not fair, but God is always faithful... Saw this on a sign outside a church today. This church always has something posted on a big sign by the side of the road. I don't care for most of their posts, but I liked this one....mainly because I know first hand that the first part is right on...so maybe the second part is true too. A couple years ago they had another post that I liked.. You can't be grateful and unhappy at the same time.  I thought about this one. this is very true.. and this day I thought about all the things and people in my life that I should be grateful for, and realized that if I was really grateful then I couldn't be unhappy...Just a thought..

Thursday I'm going scrapbooking with about 20 others from work, friends, family....will post maybe at least one page.
Between vacation, redoing rooms and being sick I haven't gotten any pages done....

Work sucked all week, monday we had a fight in front of f-dorm and I had to run from b-dorm (shouldn't have been over there but went to get something from Lindsey about scrapbooking) and thought I was going to have a heart attach once I got there....not from all the blood on the sidewalk (I'm use to shit like that) but from running... I couldn't hardly breath...It's like my heart was trying to push it self out of my chest. I went to the doctor tuesday and heard the same ole shit...quit smoking...I couldn't wait to get the hell out of there so I could lite up again...but all joking aside, I am going to try real hard to stop..next week for sure.

lie-a false statement deliberately presented as true. 
true-consistent with fact or reality.
(just thought I would throw this in for someone special)

Today ends my 9 day vacation, I hate going back to work tomorrow...

Went to Tenn. to visit with my granddaughter Amber (15), grandson Casey(21) and their father Kurt. Their Mother lisa died last year November 28th from lung cancer. She was 41 years old.. Lise was my stepdaughter, whom I've loved and known since she was 12 years old.  Amber is living with the preacher, Casey is living with a friend and kurt is staying at the house by himself. It's like they have fallen apart and I don't know what to do to make it better for any of them.  Stayed 4 days and they seemed to be a little better when we left...at least they were all talking...

I fixed my grandson James' room up while on vacation, will post a pic of that....wished now I had taken a before pic..
Still have some touch ups I have to do next day off...

My granddaughter Robyn cooked chili tonight..It was great, she has turned out to be a pretty good little cook..

James and friends..Me, Angie and Rosey took the kids to Daytona on a day trip.....The water came right up to where we were sitting...the waves were so big, it was unreal.....A good day...

Just did these pages.....Going to put the title on still and journal in the far right, but it needs something else??

Went to my daughter's graduation tonight. Santa Fe Community college. Dental assistant program. I was very proud of her. She has worked very hard and college has been very good for her, helped her through a bad time in her life and helped her to cope better with life. She has my four year old grandson, James. 

Both my daughters are divorce. My grandson is going through a divorce and now I think my granddaughter might also be thinking about getting one. Nobody stays together anymore. I don't know if that's good or not. I know a lot of lonely single people, but also know a lot of miserable married people too.

Went to jap. restaurant and  ate after graduation. Me, hubby, both daughters, grandson James, granddaughter  Robyn, Jami's male friend she is dating, her ex- in laws and her ex-hubby.?? It felt weird.....ex-hubby is a piece of shit most of the time, parents are good people....

Well I found out today that I no longer have a canteen job. I think it sucks that they kept me in the dark and didn't tell me what was going on. It also hurts my feelings. I have worked really hard for 3 years and not so much as an f..in thank you for  doing this for 3 years , giving up family time, listening to crap all the time. I don't think $500.00 a month paid me for all I did. Now I don't know what I'm going to do to make up the income.??? And of course the people picked to be in charge are the people in charge. The higher up was stealing from the state, sooooo lets let them take over all the state canteens. Why not, things change and nothing changes. That's the way it always is. The state is paying 5 people to do canteen stuff on state time what they use to pay me to do for 500,00 a month. Real smart. But hey it's only tax money right.

Fire works were awesome this year like always.


The after mass, it was well worth cleaning up, wish you could have been here.

Ariana so excited about her babydoll.

Ariana squatting down, I thought this was so cute!

Isn't this a beautiful sunset??? Florida, I love it....

I can't believe all the stuff I didn't know until I started reading other peoples' journals. I'm dumbfounded at the shit I don't know. I mean people are writing about people I don't even know or never heard of. Of course I live in a one horse town, don't read a lot, and before that, when I lived in a big town, most of my sentences started with "so you have to potty" It wasn't until I went out and got a job that I realized people talked about other things, but that's it really, just the people that I work with and I work at a prison. And of course these people I work with also live in a one horse town. If it didn't happen next door we don't know about it. I have directv and my news comes from New York, which I love New York and intend on going there before I die, but lets face it, I don't need to know the news in New York, or the weather. I am almost brain dead. And to make matters worse, they-bosses at work, are placing me in the control room. I do get friday and saturday off now, but that control room is extremely stressful. I'm dreading it. I didn't see Ariana last sunday, because....I'm brain dead and forgot. Did get a nice picture and develop the ones I took the sunday before. I will post some soon!

Hurricane Alberto has come and gone. Just a lot of rain, thank god!! Couldn't really go out so I did work on some scrapbook pages. I did the monthly theme, My dream vacation. It was going to New York. One day I will get to go there. I think the page turned out pretty good. Wasn't sure how to do it since I've never been there but then I remember that John and Renae had gone and sent me this one picture, I'm haten on them right now. hehe Here's the page.

part of gatorland trip

lift up the big blk/wh botton and my journaling is under that pic.

Kobe Japanese steak house, my journaling was a little off, :(

Hello everyone,

Back from vacation and had a good time.  James loved everything. We went to kobe' Japanese steak house and he was totally amazed. He ate a little of everything, I think because it was prepared right in front of him. He really liked when the chef set fire to the grill!! Of course I have finished that page already and intent to post it soon.  We went to wet and wild, didn't take pictures, bum-er, but I am so tried of doing water pages. Went to arabian nights dinner show, food wasn't that great, but the show was kick a_ _. Nothing can beat gatorland, anyone going to Orlando with small kids I highly recommend it, they love it and it's cheap. I got a picture of James on a real gator!!! Can't wait to do that page, but can't find any gators. (and I live 30 miles from Gainesville, whats' up with that?) We also did the go-cart thing, but James was scared! Got pics though. Going to the beach at the end of this month, holmes beach? with sister and her 4 grandchildren and us and James Edward. The usepic is of my grandson at the butterfly museum in Gainsville. My page on that didn't turn out very good, but he sure did have a good time.  byby

journal is in the shaving lotion



Easter fun. I love this page!

Grandaughter and daughter road trip. farwell dinner for Granddaughter robyn. Grandson playing in the rain. journal is under picture.